Uhm

I went out at 3:00pm.. It is now 12:50am. Don’t really know what happened.

It’s my third night drinking this week, and yes, I should really stop. I usually have really good control but tonight I just got fucked up.

We got to the KTV And we just drank so much… And then I just remember crying about my dad and everyone coming to comfort me which was so pathetic … O m g I really out did myself this time. I am a dumbass… My guy co worker saw me cry my eyes out.

And I’m so sorry I harassed you all night, because in my memory it was only like 3 times, four times tops. He was the only guy, and he was late, so..

O m g.

Not to mention I saw my sister’s best friend on my way out. LMAO. Apparently he offered me a ride but I just remember slapping his chest and telling him not to tell my sister haha…

This would be funny to look back on.

Fuck…. Haha … It’s funny now but I don’t think I’m going to think the same tomorrow morning lol..

And please let me mention the fact that I came home with no more eyeliner on HAHA … I cannot… I’m retarded

Xoxo

C.

Stupid stupid

Sometimes I phrase questions in such a stupid way that makes me look totally retarded. Simply because I’m probably going to get a stupid answer that I already know, but it wasn’t what I meant! Does this even make sense…

& sometimes things are so complex to me, just for me to realize that the answer is so simple. It’s bad, I think people think I’m doing it on purpose. I don’t know which is sadder, the fact that I might have a ‘ she acts stupid to look cute rep’ or the fact that I’m not pretending, I’mactually stupid.

Donate some brain cells to me please. Qualifiers SAT 1800>

Night shifts

They really change you. I used to be a in-bed-by-ten-sleep-by-eleven type of person. Now I don’t sleep till 3 am. I just worry for when school starts. Habits are hard to change.

In other news, I went to my friend’s graduation today. It was short and sweet, and I really appreciate this friend. We are not ULTRA close, but I’m comfortable around him and he makes me feel at ease. I’m happy he invited me to be at his graduation. I hope we will continue to keep in touch, and to keep our relationship even though he’s going to be pretty far away.

Just took my blog off my Instagram

Incase my coworkers find this because I will talk about them here. Nothing bad, but it’s just weird if they read it.

So, let me just update you because I haven’t been really writing anything here.

I recently got close to co worker A. Not even close, but we just started to talk more. After work, during our shifts, etc etc. We decided to eat some dessert after our shift, and suddenly Co Worker B calls. I thought it was weird because B is a morning shift and A is a night shift. So I asked her ‘ ohh, are you guys close like that? (Cause this was like 1am in the morning) ‘ and she goes…’no not really’ & I let it drop. Then, in one of our conversations, she tells me that she knows Co worker B (male), C (female) and D (male) before hand. & I just reply in a slightly shocked manner because I just know that one guy from my trig & physics class sophomore year of high school.

The next day, co worker A texts me to meet up early for coffee. When we meet up, the first thing she tells me is ‘ sorry, I just wanted to let you know that me and coworker B are actually brother and sister,& I feel so bad for lying to you. ‘ & I just reply with a even more shocked manner, but I drop it because frankly it really isn’t any of my business anyway. She made me swore that I would tell no one, but honestly I don’t care enough to tell it to anybody…

Fast forward almost a week later, it is now yesterday. I worked with co worker C, (female) and told her some embarrassing things, had a chill time, and soon, it was time to go home. We split up our closing shift duties and she dips with my other coworker E ( not really important in the story).

I’m stuck checking in this one last guy because life sucks and everyone hates me. Whatever though, I check that man in, I dip, and I’m walking home. I’m a block away from my workplace when I see Co worker C with Coworker B.

My Sherlock skills just went through the roof and it just occurred to me that Coworker B is Coworker C’s “boyfriend” who always picks her up.

& if the story is not too confusing, you’ll remember that B is A’s brother.. SO THEY ARE ALL RELATED.

What. The. Hell. Is going on…..

& Co worker D, he’s B’s best friend, and someone that I thought was cute. But I’m not going to admit it if anyone from work finds my blog and tells him… Xoxo

After this I basically just don’t trust anyone. & I feel so uncomfortable with co worker B.. I’m basically an open book to him and to me he’s just a Sherlock Holmes mystery. Ugh fml … Never telling anyone about my life lol…

I’m not a person to dwell on my mistakes

I honestly hate making mistakes, but it’s something that happens. You need to believe me when I say sorry because I mean it. I say sorry, I keep a note in my mind and I move on. I don’t like to dwell on my weakness and hear people keep telling me how wrong I did. I heard you the first time. I’ll try to be better next time. Meanwhile, calm down and stop being so uptight about everything. What’s done is done. Yelling at me isn’t going to help with the situation.

You have to pay for my consequences and I’m sorry. But there’s nothing anyone can do about so can we just please move on! It’s always you that wants to keep talking about it. please lets just move on