Life has been pretty good

I’m just …grateful for so many things.

I hear the dog outside, playing with mum. She’s old and most definitely will die soon. Still, I am treasuring her days with me.

So much more to update but I am sleepy. So I’ll leave it here for now. Just wanted to quick update.

(I am actually in a good mood, but when I type things out I always sound so pessimistic. What does that say about me? Haha…)

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17 Things You Know All Too Well If You Had A Job In College

This was probably me writing this… #jkbutseriouslysorelevant

Thought Catalog

1. When everyone is rallying to party it up at 10 p.m. on a Thursday, you had to stay in to study, were working a night shift, or were getting sleep so you could work on your Friday night.

2. … and the same thing happened on Friday and Saturday, so it sometimes felt like you had no social life at all.

3. If there was a work deadline or you were really frazzled between juggling so many things, you had to get really creative with explaining to that one teacher why you needed an extension on that paper. You also had a running list of which teachers would be more understanding than others.

4. Often, you’d load two or three days a week with all your classes, thinking it’d be easier that way… until you had four papers due on the same day.

5. The bag you’d schlep between…

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Mom, you are very hard to live with.

There are certain things that I can no longer stand.

So much so, that l don’t know if love is an accurate term anymore.

Of course, I remember the times you’ve done so much for me. You try to give me the most even when you have none. That birthday party you threw for me when we were still living at Peck Ave, is still very very clear for me. Years ago, but still fresh on my mind. You made my friends & I pasta, with chips and soda.

Thank you.

But sometimes that’s just not going to work.

The damage is done, and I’m sorry that I cannot love you the same anymore.

My sister does, my brother does; but like Michelle, I cannot.

I just cannot forgive anymore

still, you can have my xx

C.

17 Insanely Tasty Junk Foods You Must Try When You Visit Chicago

… booking ticket to chicago now…

Thought Catalog

1. Giordano’s pizza

This is bible:

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2. More pizza

This time from Ian’s:

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3. Actually this could be a whole post of pizzas

Lou Malnati’s now:

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4. But we can’t forsake the Chicago dog

Behold:

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5. Or Chicago-style Italian beef

Pictured here from Tony’s:

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6. A “mother-in-law” sandwich”

AKA a tamale in a hot dog bun with chili on top:

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7. The french fries at Chicago’s Dog House

Bless:

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8. Garrett Popcorn

This is cheese flavor:

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9. The poutine of your wildest dreams

At Big Cheese Poutinerie they have everything from Oktoberfest (pictured) to “meat candy” to meatloaf poutine.

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10. Doughnuts from Doughnut Vault

You just have to wake up early and get them before they run out:

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11. Saganaki

Sagnaki is a Greek…

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& who can say they have done what I’ve done

I’ve just transferred 1g into my brother’s account without looking back. He just took half of my security away, and I’m in a point where I can’t earn it back. Not until 3 or 4 months later.

I’m thankful for him though, he’s done way more for me. So this is just to reassure me that it’s ok, all is not at ends.

I just don’t feel as safe anymore.

Worst Month Ever

I had a really bad month. It was stressful. That means a lot if you know me. I don’t ever really use that word after sophomore year of high school. THAT was stressful.

But I’ve noticed a reoccurring pattern. I always stress myself by overwhelming my schedule. I’ve learnt better though. Next semester I will not be this crazy anymore. I’m going to live my college life more to what it should be.

Though I totally don’t regret this internship. It’s annoying, and a lot of work; but its such a great and amazing opportunity. I’m trying to hook my sister up, because honestly, she’s probably more fit for the job.

& everyone is starting to date. It really makes me wonder where I should be right now. I still don’t think relationships are for me yet, I am still too immature and I recently realized I can barely take care of myself… It was such a big slap in the face because I always thought I got my shit together.

Next week I am going to crash my friend’s dorm in Fordham. I hope we get to spend some quality time together. & mostly I just want to experience that dorm life I always wanted for myself.

more updates soon,

xoxo.

C.

College

It’s pretty much been a year since I had this blog, I remember among my first posts were applying for colleges.

College sucks, most likely because of me. My schedule is packed pretty tight that I don’t have a lot of time to enjoy it. Good thing I am a freshman, I still have plenty of time to figure things out and change if it is not what I am happy with.

& of course, I will update you on boys.

There’s this guy that I am kind of catching feelings for. I totally hate myself for it. He’s actually the thug type, but he is smart. He’s the snap back, pants down type. Which, if you know me, you’ll be like.. “what?!”

I’m afraid to post more details about him, though I know he probably will not be able to find this. #paranoia

I always fall for the flirty guys, I’m stupid.

ugh, save me. I don’t want to like him.

Then again, my feelings are like the weather. I will check back with you in a bit. Very soon, because my birthday is tomorrow! woohoo

oOOOooOoooo !! officially making $20/hour now. At the internship. Did I even blog bout that? Well, yeah.

Many updates and today’s sermon

I haven’t really blogged recently and so there are certain things worth mentioning…

1. GM at the hotel praised me in front of intern! He asked the Intern privately who he should promote and she named me. He said he would be I am not full time. He’s going to try to hire me when I graduate. **woOOoooOooOhOoOoOooo

2. Went to a party/meet-up for 3 friend’s birthday. The person i least expect actually recommend a place for us to drink. Uhm, T., where did you even come from? Then I became really friendly with one of my sister’s friends and he admitted to me that he missed my sister, which I thought was so cute… lol. (always thought they looked mad cute together). We are so awkward when we are sober but I have a video of us high fiving each other.. so.. haha.. alcohol does funny things to people.
** speaking of which… kinda held hands with my good childhood friend in the car. Kind of awkward, but kind of funny at the same time. I’m pretty sure I let go first because he was pretty f***ed up lol. I remember feeling how awkward it was even though I was tipsy-ish. Good night though, I had fun.

3. Finally got my gah jing geen! excited to use it. Only used it once to buy some yeen for a friend.

4. started to go to a church in Whitestone. It’s a Korean church called Mustard Seed. The Pastor always talks about topics I want to avoid. Alcohol, marriage, respect for parents, fathers…. All jokes aside I really did learn a lot of perspective from him though. The most shocking so far is the equality of man and woman, but the different roles each gender has. Apparently we have to be submissive to our husbands? … uhm.. independent woman here… You woulda thought

Which brings me to today’s sermon, I wanted to talk about it also. We talked about Fathers.. and he spoke of a lot of stats. How kids in fatherless homes are more destined to drop out, to suicide, etc. Im just so glad I beat the statistics. I’m so glad that I value my future and I am going towards the correct path in my life. Or so I hope.

My relationship with God has been pretty shaky though. Lots of ‘ Hm…. do I actually care? ‘ & ‘Why am I here’ ‘s. Which is pretty scary in itself. I need to read the bible more.

Yeah. That’s about it. Lots of random thoughts and strange transitions. I’m not even going to bother proof reading this so it’s going to be really bad. It’s good to be recording my week down, though. (‘:

See you again mostly likely when school starts,

xoxo,

C.

** Please note that events are not in chronological order