I’ve just transferred 1g into my brother’s account without looking back. He just took half of my security away, and I’m in a point where I can’t earn it back. Not until 3 or 4 months later.
I’m thankful for him though, he’s done way more for me. So this is just to reassure me that it’s ok, all is not at ends.
I just don’t feel as safe anymore.
I just read my last two posts about the boy I was catching feelings for. Uh, yeah… I don’t know what I was thinking.. this always happens to me… haha… I don’t even know what I want…. This is why I cannot date anyone #immature
I had a really bad month. It was stressful. That means a lot if you know me. I don’t ever really use that word after sophomore year of high school. THAT was stressful.
But I’ve noticed a reoccurring pattern. I always stress myself by overwhelming my schedule. I’ve learnt better though. Next semester I will not be this crazy anymore. I’m going to live my college life more to what it should be.
Though I totally don’t regret this internship. It’s annoying, and a lot of work; but its such a great and amazing opportunity. I’m trying to hook my sister up, because honestly, she’s probably more fit for the job.
& everyone is starting to date. It really makes me wonder where I should be right now. I still don’t think relationships are for me yet, I am still too immature and I recently realized I can barely take care of myself… It was such a big slap in the face because I always thought I got my shit together.
Next week I am going to crash my friend’s dorm in Fordham. I hope we get to spend some quality time together. & mostly I just want to experience that dorm life I always wanted for myself.
more updates soon,